On The Road Again But This Time Is Different

Life is a journey. Would you Agree?  This truth is foundational to understanding we are “Penned in His Image – discovering and living our unique story.”

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Discovering and living my unique story leads to being wholly well. I want to be well, wholly well. I want to do my part to make that a reality but I’m failing miserably. These days I’m learning a lot about what it means to be wholly well, and it’s changing my perspective. For far too long I talk a good game but fail to walk the talk.

I’ve even written about it on the blog before, first in 2016 and again in 2017 and I’m embarrassed to say I have not made any significant changes and find myself in a worse condition than when I published those posts.

Let me start by explaining what I mean when I say wholly well. It’s vital to understand that we are triune beings (body, soul, and spirit) created in God’s image. While I won’t profess for a minute to understand all that this entails I am coming to understand how that affects my wellness because what affects one of these three areas affects all of them.

Being wholly well will look different for each of us because of our uniqueness but there are principles that apply to us all. I am sharing my journey in hopes it will help you clarify what wellness looks like for you.

It is a journey but not a journey that follows a straight road.  As I have said before it’s about progress and not perfection. If only I would listen to myself. it seems like I am always in the starting over phase.

I was determined that would change when I wrote the 2016 post and then again when I wrote about it in 2017. Instead, here I am getting worse, 50 pounds overweight, soaring blood pressure, and fibromyalgia that keeps getting worse. So why am I stalled and loosing ground?

I’ve been going to start over and take the steps I need to take for months. It’s more like years if I’m completely honest. In 2010 I reached the highest weight of my life. That’s when I took part in a wellness plan at work and lost 40 lbs. Sadly, I started on a hamster wheel of regaining and losing the weight multiple times only to wind up back at the weight I started at in 2010.

Why? Why am I not making progress?  Lack of discipline, laziness, procrastination, or perfectionism? Am I struggling to do it in my strength pretending I’m leaving it up to God; in reality asking Him to bless my plans?

There is truth in all of those reasons but it’s time to give myself grace and take a step forward. I’m letting go of the past and the false starts and move forward.

“No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.”  – Philippians 3:13-14 (NLT)

God has serendipitously brought three resources that interlock perfectly into my life.  They dovetail precisely with what I have learned in the past but in a grace filled, balanced, and sustainable way. Addressing my whole being; body, soul, and spirit.

And so the journey begins afresh. When I was a kid, my dad had a Ford Fairlane that would travel from zero to 120 mph in six seconds. Take my word for it, it did, and it was the scariest ride I was ever on. This won’t be a zero to 120 mph in six seconds journey. It genuinely will be about progress and not perfection this time. I will remain in the vine (John 15:5) knowing I can do all things through Him (Philippians 4:13) and believing Isaiah 43:19 and Proverbs 3: 5-6.

It’s humbling and embarrassing to share how poorly I have done in stewarding my body. But I am sharing it for a two-fold reason. First, hoping it will encourage you no matter where you are on your journey and second inviting you to hold me accountable.

I’ll share what I’m learning along this journey here on the blog from time to time.  In the meantime please feel free to email me (k@klgreenwalt.com) with any questions you might have.

Jesus, I accept me and I trust You. Lead me on this journey one grace step at a time. (paraphrased from Susie Larson).

Where are you on your journey to whole life wellness?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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One thought on “On The Road Again But This Time Is Different

  1. “Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead.” Absolutely! I appreciate your transparency in describing your struggles and wish you well on your journey.

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